Things I Did (and Wore) in April 2018

I’m happy. I’ve been feeling like I’m at a great place in my life—with my husband and my dog, of course, who are my lights—but with everything else, too: work, friends, family, me. Things just feel good and I’m trying to savor that feeling. My therapist has been trying to help me be more positive (Lizandra, you’d be so proud) and I feel like it’s been working. Maybe it’s the sunshine or maybe it’s just that life can just be pretty great sometimes. All I know is I want to bask in this.

That said, I haven’t been taking as many outfit photos lately, especially as I’ve been working hard to get my spending under control (thus, less new clothes to show off). But I did nab a couple of photos!

Here are some of the things I wore in April.

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I really like this dress, which is a great combination of loose and cute and also it has pockets which you all know that I love.

Outfit details

  • Dress: 25 Central
  • Leggings: Old Navy
  • Boots: DSW

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It took me a while to wear this outfit as I feel like it’s the most I’ve ever shown off my belly. Let’s be real: I’m fat, and my polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) makes it so that I tend to carry my weight right in my stomach. So, it took me a long time of staring at this dress (a gift from my mom) in my closet before I finally gained the courage to wear it out.

I wore it.

And nothing bad happened!

I even felt pretty good in it. I am always seeing these amazing plus-size beauties on Instagram showing off their belly, so why not me? It may not be an all-the-time thing for me, but I shouldn’t be ashamed of my body. It’s taken me nearly 30 years to realize that, and I definitely still struggle (especially with feelings about my upper arms and back), but I’m working on it.

Outfit details

  • Dress: LuLaRoe (thanks, ma!)
  • Tights: WeLoveColors.com
  • Boots: DSW
  • Cardigan: Forever 21

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Okay, so, this isn’t a typical “what I wore” photo, but I did wear this makeup, and I loved it. I never wear lipstick, but I think I could! On a lazy Saturday afternoon, I decided to toy around with some of the makeup that’s been piling up in my vanity (a combination of Ipsy gems and my impulse purchases).

Surprisingly, I loved this red matte lip.

Then I decided to venture even further out of the box and go for a red glitter lip, because why not?

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Plus, here are things I did in April, which included:

  • Savoring every magnificent moment of Beychella (and then obsessing over it, talking about it, thinking about it, listening to other people analyze it, and loving it all over again)
  • Listening to new music, including the Cardi B and Chloe x Halle albums
  • Finally meeting up with April, my longtime Tumblr/Twitter friend, as she visited Brown in Providence (I love the internet! Thanks for bringing me such great friends!)
  • Finished a lovely, wonderful project at work called “Building Bridges”, which was aimed at bringing people together across their differences and celebrate the diversity in this big, beautiful world
  • Took advantage of the first nice day in April with my husband and visited our favorite winery
  • Had dinner with Bill and two wonderful (new to me, old to him!) friends
  • Spent some quality time with my friends and their hilarious, adorable kids
  • Ate some pie because of some good work news (which I can share soon!)
  • Petted dogs at work because of course
  • Tried to go to People’s Court (yes, the TV show), failed, and turned the day around by stopping by Milkcraft for some incredible ice cream

 

A great April and I’m ready for May, an upcoming vacation, and turning 30!

xo.

Things I Wore (and Did) in November 2017

I don’t have the perfect life—and some months are harder to get through than others. November was a tough one: my mental health is suffering; my job is, at times, challenging; and the month ended with some particularly disheartening and upsetting family drama.

I think, too often, we all get caught up in depicting a picture-perfect life with beautifully curated photos (that we’re reluctant to admit are only a few among dozens we took before we got the right one to post and share) and cherry-picked anecdotes (that leave out all of the messy, unflattering things that happen in between). We only show parts of our lives, partly because it’s completely unrealistic to share everything and partly because who wants to admit they’re struggling?

But we’re all struggling, at least in some way, and we’ve all got things going on in our lives at any given moment that may be vexing us, hurting us, or challenging us.

I try my best to keep this in mind as I scroll through my social media feeds day after day, seeing only the highlights from the lives of friends, family, colleagues, acquaintances, high school classmates, and celebrities, but sometimes it’s can be tough to keep that in perspective.

So, this is me, reminding myself that it’s all right if everything isn’t all right.

And also reminding myself that there’s nothing wrong with having a highlight reel if for no one but ourselves so that we can look back on the time (which goes by too quickly!) and appreciate the things we have. As someone who struggles with mental illness in the form of anxiety and depression, I often have trouble keeping things in perspective, of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, and sometimes of just making it through the day. But I know that these monthly check-ins, where I look back on the month I’ve just experienced, are providing me with the ability to feel grateful for what I have even on days that feel dark.

With that said, there were many beacons of light that I experienced in November, which I’ve got to remind myself of: a perfect trip to Portsmouth with Bill; the satisfaction of a job well done on a massive project I worked on at work; beautiful sunsets; a rainbow; a book of poems I devoured; warm hot chocolate; a glowing Christmas tree in my wonderful home; a new therapist; a drag show featuring a few of my favorite RuPaul’s Drag Race queens; hundreds of happy moments with Bill; lots of dog kisses from Obi; making new friends at work; thoughtful daily texts from my Grandma; meme-sharing with my wonderful brother; laughter with friends, both online and off.

Amid all of that, here are some of the outfits I wore.

Outfit details

  • Dress: Fashion to Figure (has anyone else felt like their style has completely changed recently?)
  • Leggings: Old Navy
  • Boots: Rainbow

This is of my fave classic winter looks.

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  • Sweater: Old Navy
  • Jeans: Old Navy
  • Boots: DSW

This dress is so creamy soft!

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  • Dress: Ann Taylor via 20 Below Boutique in Portsmouth
  • Tights: We Love Colors
  • Boots: Payless

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  • Shirt: Target
  • Scarf: Unsure!
  • Jeans: Old Navy
  • Boots: DSW

Cozy, winter sweaters were what I lived in this month. I’m not a huge fan of the look of this one, but this is the same exact sweater (except for color) as the photo at the end of this post. In that photo, I think the sweater looks great. What gives?

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  • Sweater: Old Navy
  • Leggings: Kohl’s
  • Boots: DSW

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  • Sweater: Forever 21
  • Leggings: Kohl’s
  • Boots: DSW

Bill called this my “Lorelai Gilmore” look, which delighted me.

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  • Sweater: Forever 21
  • Jeans: Old Navy
  • Boots: DSW

Not really an outside-of-the-house outfit, but still! Festive!

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  • Sweater: Walmart
  • Leggings: Walmart
  • Sweater boots: Payless

This is one of my new favorite shirts! I added a Hocus Pocus patch, which I nabbed in Portsmouth (the patch itself is made by Laser Brain Patch Co.) to a cheap, black crewneck sweatshirt I grabbed on Amazon for $8. I got a ton of compliments on it and feel super proud even though all I did was iron the patch on.

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  • Sweater: Old Navy
  • Jeans: Old Navy
  • Boots: DSW

And, here are some of the things I did.

xo.

Things I Wore (and Did) in July 2017

One of my favorite parts about looking back on the month’s outfits is that it gives me a good sense of all of the things I’ve done recently.

I sometimes find myself feeling like I don’t “do” anything, like I spend far too much time on Twitter retweeting jokes or on the couch rewatching “RuPaul’s Drag Race.”

But Bill and I have some pretty awesome adventures, which can be easy to forget when I’m lazing about the house. This is such a nice way for me to be reminded of all of the little and big moments I have with him and that I have with myself.

July 2017 was a big month for me. I wrapped up my time working at a job I mostly enjoyed, and that was tough. I had to say goodbye to colleagues I really cared about and respected and friends I admired and loved. I said goodbye to a 10-minute commute and super short work days. I said goodbye to my first-ever office. I said goodbye to the job that helped my husband and I realize that western Massachusetts was the right place for the two of us to settle down. But I needed to go. So I left because I was treated very, very unfairly by my boss and I knew I deserved better, and because the light on my future there was slowly dimming. It was not an easy decision.

And I started a new job, one I was very excited about, a brand new role as Diversity Communications Manager that would combine my love for communications and writing with my passion for social justice. It’s the first job where I can be my whole self, where I won’t have to shield parts of me. I can bring the social justice knowledge I seek outside of work into my actual job. It feels liberating. I’ll admit it was scary—absolutely terrifying—to make the leap from a job where I felt comfortable to a job that would make me begin anew. But sometimes the scary thing is absolutely the right thing to do, even if it’s hard. My first three weeks have been incredible; they’ve pushed me to exercise skills I haven’t used in years and I feel like I’m really valued and heard and respected. I’m so happy I made the leap, and I hope it only gets better from here.

As for the rest of July, I took some trips to the beach. I found myself enthralled by poetry. I read a bunch. I spent time outside in the sun. Bill and I went to a drag show, we traveled to the Berkshires, we were inspired by art, we explored western Mass a little.

All in all, life is good.

And here’s what I wore.

My last day of work. Sadly, this also means it’s the last photo EVER with that polka-dotted wall. I shall miss it!

Outfit details

  • Dress: Marshall’s
  • Shoes: DSW
  • Necklace: Target
  • NEW GLASSES: Zenni Optical

I feel so beautiful in this dress. It reminds me of the flamenco dancers we saw when we were in Barcelona. (I literally cannot believe that I got to type that sentence. Who even am I?)

Despite feeling beautiful in this dress, it’s not exactly practical. But what better event to wear it to than a drag show?

Outfit details

  • Dress: Marshall’s
  • Shoes: Target

First day on the new job! I had been stressing about what to wear. I wanted something professional, but not too formal… and I also wanted something that wouldn’t make me too hot. It is the dead of summer, after all. I settled on this beautiful dress, WHICH HAS POCKETS! And shoutout to my first selfie at my new job.

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  • Dress: Amazon.com (which I am realizing is pretty awesome for cute, affordable dresses)
  • Shoes: Target

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  • Shirt: LuLaRoe Perfect T
  • Skirt: Charlotte Russe
  • Shoes: Payless

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  • Dress: LuLaRoe Amelia—still can’t tell if these dresses look flattering on me or not, but they do have POCKETS!
  • Shoes: DSW

A scorching hot day made for the perfect opportunity to wear this new Marshall’s score—only $15! The pattern is little ships in boats. Very summery.

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  • Dress: Marshall’s

I bought two of these wrap dresses from Forever 21 about a year ago, but they really hold up.

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  • Dress: Forever 21
  • Shoes: Payless

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  • Dress: LuLaRoe Julia
  • Shrug: Marshall’s
  • Shoes: Payless

And here’s a peek at what I did in July.

Anyone else excited for fall, the best season of the year?

xo.

Outfits of May 2017

May was full of incredible adventures and, looking back, I still can’t believe how much I managed to pack in there.

My husband and I took a trip to California and the moment we got back, I attended a baby shower for one of my good friends (and the shower my lady girl gang from work!). I got my hair cut (!), worked a graduation, turned 29, and celebrated my birthday with family, friends, and my husband, who had a thrilling weekend planned for me.

Here’s what I wore. I originally wanted a Minnie Mouse-inspired dress to wear to Disneyland, but the one I ordered (sadly) didn’t fit. So I had to improvise. I wanted something cute and feminine, but I still wanted to be comfortable. This worked out well!

Outfit details

  • Shirt: Old Navy
  • Skirt: Forever 21
  • Shoes: DSW (Converse)
  • Minnie Mouse ears: Disney World

You can’t see this outfit up close, but I love these photos, so I had to include them! My husband, my parents, and I traveled on a deserted road to get to Antelope Valley Poppy Reserve, so we stopped to snap some photos.

Outfit details

  • Dress: LuLaRoe Nicole
  • Shoes: Payless

This outfit served me well at Hearst Castle and at Montano de Oro beach. I DIE for this shirt, which is a reference to both the Coolio song and one of my favorite movies, “Clueless.”

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  • Shirt: Ross (I’m OBSESSED. Why don’t we have any in Massachusetts?!)
  • Dress: Forever 21
  • Shoes: DSW

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Shirt: Old Navy

Skirt: Forever 21

Shoes: DSW


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  • Shirt: H&M (my new fave shirt)
  • Jeans: Marshall’s
  • Shoes: Payless

How beautiful are the women in my lady girl gang?!

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  • Dress: LuLaRoe Nicole
  • Shoes: Payless

This was the last photo of me with my long hair!

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  • Shirt: Old Navy
  • Leggings: LuLaRoe
  • Cardigan: Forever 21
  • Shoes: Payless

New hair! It was a bit shorter than I asked for (I asked for my hair to stay below my shoulders), but I’m getting used to it.

Outfit details

  • Shirt: Marshall’s
  • Skirt: Forever 21
  • Tights: WeLoveColors.com
  • Shoes: Payless

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  • Shirt: Old Navy
  • Skirt: Ross
  • Shoes: Payless

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  • Dress: LuLaRoe Amelia (my first!)
  • Cardigan: Gift from my mom
  • Shoes: Payless

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  • Dress: Old Navy
  • Jacket: TJ Maxx
  • Shoes: Payless

And here’s a peek at my incredible birthday weekend (and the days leading up to it). My husband planned a surprise weekend, which he revealed to me through a series of riddles given to me each day leading up to it. It was so incredibly creative and romantic and it got me even more pumped for a wonderful weekend. We visited an arcade; went out to dinner; stopped by a brewery; I got my nails done; we went to a vineyard; visited Mystic; and ate all kinds of delicious foods. My friends and family were wonderful to me, too. I’m so lucky.

xo.